Confused
©2000 lil c

the very point of our meeting today
a quick non-sequitar
a somewhat pointless meander
so I can go without leaving
Traces
hardly a memory
a forgotton piece of nothing

mortality

i have the priviledge of knowing my
definite demise
each moment
so priceless
yet i find myself mostly responsible
for the number of days i remain

kurt
lori
bear
you controlled the limits
of your physical existence
please enlighten me.

but no
I see the wonders that some create
are those the boundries of limit?
and why can I stretch and
not reach that
High...

i think I am loved
i'd like to think i am
but do I have a right?
such a selfish desire.
I do.

but i don't love you back
and i never will
it's your affliction
not mine

do i sound confused?

fuzz guitar
knotty pine
and,
of course,
menstrual synchronicity

fading pheremones
no more
even lingering
olifactory
memories
of me

no Birdy
I'll not fly away with you
and even if I could
why?

still confused.